Can't...Keep...Up...}gasps{

Oh xanga. I did promise. I even see the blog. I voiced it. Blogged it. Shared it with the world. And yet, here I am. The first blog in what? Years. Do you know I've been a "member" for waaaay over 1500 days?? Whoa.

So here's the thing xanga. I didn't leave you for Myspace. I even tried hard not to leave you for Facebook, but now there's Twitter?! Xanga... sometimes you just have to keep up with the times. You can't get stuck in the past. If you do that, you are leaving yourself vunerable to grow up and be the old woman who still wears mumu's, hair scrunchies and clunky heels. I can't do that to myself. Can not and will not.

Thanks for keeping my blogs though. I mean serious. That's pretty cool of you Xanga.

Don't worry, I'll stop by next year.

I was in the sonic drive thru at 10pm.

the woman in the car in front of me starts screaming "AS GOD AS MY WITNESS!!! I TOLD YOU I SAW A RAT!! IT CAME FROM OVER THERE!!!!" the reason i heard so well? i was in a drive thru, the windows were all rolled down. i'm sure everyone else saw the car shaking and heard the woman yelling about a sonic rat also...

soon after the previous incident, i looked down at my dashboard to see one of my signal yellow light things on. i'm not sure if it was just the black picture-ish outline, or maybe it was the yellow backlight, but whatever it was i called my dad and asked what it means when my cars yellow submarine light comes on. my dads answer? "submarine? Genesis, are you sure its not an engine light?"

today i used the advice i gave Ms Loup the other night;

Knock on the tv screen of your life and say "Excuse me Jesus; I'm not quite sure if you are completely aware of the confusion in my life right now. So when it seems fitting to you, please let me in on my next channel. Thanks."

I feel like I know where I'm going, it's just the getting there I'm not real sure of.

Faith? Trust? Hope?
I'm trying, I'm learning. I'm going somewhere.

Currently Listening St. Elsewhere By Gnarls Barkley see related

Well we have entered the age of '07. What will this year hold for me as a Genesis I wonder?
Actually let me rephrase that; I wonder what treasures God has for me as His Genesis this year?
I like that a lot better.

So 2006. What can be said about 2006?
For starters I can't remember what I wore yesterday, much less how the last year went.. With that said.
It was a good year.
I've grown as a young Christian woman so much this year. God has taught me a lot about integrity, character, self-worth and discipline. Honesty was a big learning factor this year as well, but not necessarily just honesty towards others. I learned how to be true to myself. All of these are something I've been and will keep growing in, I don't claim to have perfected any.

I'd like to end with some random cool memories from this year, but I don't remember much. I did however...
get thrown in a fridge 
was reminded how much I love to sing for Jesus
hooked on competitive cooking shows
learned to walk in 3 inch stilettos
dyed my hair black
was introduced to fried pickles
was a bridesmaid
went on a road trip

2006. Fine as wine baby. Fine as wine.
Genesis-

sometimes i make myself laugh. i love jesus a lot. not enough, but as much as i know how.

tears of the saints by leeland has been on my heart this whole week. these past couple of days i have been surrounded by people searching for something to fill a void in their lives that they don't know how to fill.
intimacy. drugs. alchohol. sex. self mutilation.
'There are many prodigal sons On our city streets they run Searching for shelter'
we search for shelter in the most unsafe places sometimes.
'Even churches have forsaken Love and mercy'
oh that the body of Christ would take a stand and become lovers of man. not the 'normal' lover. but ones that would be called servant, humble, faithful, loyal. lover.
'And all Your children will stretch out their hands And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home.' 
be encouraged. take a stand. take a leap of faith. be a lover. what will you lose but yourself when you sacrifice everything for the one you love? all we are really looking for is shelter. in something. in someone... we are in a time of desperation.

Have you prayed in desperation today? Have you cried in desperation today? Are you moved to do something more? Become someone more? How desperate are you?

I was desperate once. Then I met Jesus. Now i'm just desperate to know Him more, and to learn to Love you better.

Genesis-

Currently Listening Sound of Melodies By Leeland see related

Oh my love,

This is my note to you. to let you know I love you.

Mostly I just want to tell you that I will never leave you. I can't. Our love is far to strong. We've been through way to much together. Joyous times. Falling in love. New Adventures. Heartbreaks. All my Nostalgic times. There are just to many times to type. How could we ever fall out of love? After all those times you've been there for me? The times you sat quietly and listened to all my hearts contents. Then you don't just listen to them, you keep track of them, you remember each of our times together.

Oh Xanga. Though un-faithful users become slow and then drop to the sidelines disowning your name, I will be beside you always. I admit. Sometimes I'm slow in my new entries, but never will I ever disown you for another blogging server. This is my promise to you my faithful blogging tool.

Now all I can say is this, Thank you. Thank you Xanga.

~Genesis